Hey friends…it’s been a while, hasn’t it? Yes, it has WTH, Thuy?! This post is about to be real, it’s not going to be a pretty story nor anything about style and fashion. It’s about to be all up in my feels, might even get a little raw in emotions but I really would love for you to hear me out.
If you follow me on IG, then you know that I recently moved back home. It wasn’t an easy decision for me (26 and moving back home with momma doesn’t sound very accomplishing), but it was the best decision for myself and my future. Lately, actually for the past several months, I’ve been struggling with comparison. It’s one of the reasons I go on a hiatus from blogging and Instagram. I get into these ruts of constantly comparing myself to others. I can’t stop being so negative and hard on myself because I’m not doing or accomplishing things other people are.
When I started thinking about moving back home, I beat the hell out of myself mentally. (Pardon my French) My pride was really fighting the idea of being almost 30, and living at home with my parents. Let me go ahead and just say, this is the third time I’ve moved out of their house and moved right back home. I knew deep down this was the best decision for myself.
Right before this decision, I was going through a really tough time mentally. When I started blogging, I didn’t know what I was getting myself into. Eighty percent of the accounts I follow on Instagram are other bloggers. Now, I am going to go ahead and clarify that I am in no way bashing or putting others down. So I follow A LOT of other bloggers and I also HAD a personal Facebook page where I was friends with a lot of people from my hometown. Ya’ll know how social media is..it’s putting your best face forward and showing the world what you’re doing or have done. It’s your highlight reel and there is nothing wrong with that! But when I started to feel bad about my own life and losing my vision of purpose, I had to step away.
We live in a world where we are constantly looking for praise and all while trying to meet the expectations that the world, or society has set for us. “You should be married by 25. You should be well into your career by 30. You don’t want to wait too long to have kids!” I call this “Age-Pressure” and it’s a B! I’ma go ahead and be real with ya’ll. I’m not close to any of these milestones in my journey. These thoughts though of “Thuy you should be here at this point in your life. You need to hurry up and reach these or you will not be considered accomplished in the worlds eyes.” They were beginning to consume me and my happiness. What did I do? I turned to the one and only, God.
I fell off ya’ll…big time. I lost track. I lost vision. I WAS LOST. I knew the only one who could bring me back was God. The thing is though…He never left me. He was always there, I just chose to ignore Him for the past year. I thought I could do everything on my own without Him. I was wrong. I truly believe that the past several months were trials to get me back on track with Him. This was God telling me “Thuy, you need me. You can’t do this without me.”
So I got to reading and starting devotionals. That’s when I got to SEEING and FEELING Him. He was leading me down a path, and I wasn’t sure where it was going but I trusted Him. Then He started blessing me with these wonderful people who I didn’t have relationships with before. I connected spiritually with them. Passing along prayers for support and sharing love. I have to say, my dear friends Stephanie and Jena have been a very large help in my journey back to my faith. If ya’ll are reading this, I love ya’ll!!
I was talking to my friend, Stephanie and I literally had an “ah-ha” moment. We need to give up those expectations that we think the world has set for us. Kick em to da currrrb! Because they. Don’t. MATTER. The only expectations we should be living up to are God’s. Galatians 1:10 reads “For am I now seeing the approval of me, or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ.” Ya’ll I just got chills typing this lol. How freaking powerful is that?!
I truly believe God is working through me to share this story and give Him the glory. The thing is, God loves us for exactly who we are and where we are in our lives. We shouldn’t worry or stress about where we are going because He already knows. We simply need to trust in Him. Jeremiah 29:11. We don’t need to be troubled because God already has a plan for us. He knows just what we need when we need it and it’s always good.
The point of this is…stop worrying. Stop stressing. 1 Peter 5:7. Stop comparing yourself to others. What others are doing is none of your business. Galatians 6:4-5 Give it all to Him and only focus on Him. The rest will fall into place as it should. Mark 12:30 He loves you. He will always love you and when you’re anxious, upset or having a bad day, God is there for you with arms wide open. Psalm 37:5 When you only focus on God seriously, nothing else matters. Proverbs 3:5-6 Start seeing what all He does for you and provides for you because He will always provide for you. Psalm 139:14 You were created for this exact moment, no matter where you are in life. He loves you for exactly who you are in this very moment. As my friend put it so perfectly, “He sees our hearts when people only see our appearances.” God wouldn’t put you in a situation that wasn’t good for you. Romans 8:28
God is love ya’ll and if you need prayers for anything, big or small, doesn’t matter, please email me or message me. I would love to pray for whatever you need.
Shout out to everyone who reached out to me direct the past several months! You all played a big role in this chapter of mine as well as this post. You know who you all are! -xo